Hannah Brown opens up about “defeating” and “grueling” time on ‘Dancing with the Stars’ after reportedly crying backstage

Hannah Brown is opening up about her “defeating” and “grueling” Dancing with the Stars experience like certainly not sooner than after she reportedly cried backstage following her effectivity on Monday night’s current and some highly effective love from the judges.

According to a provide, Hannah broke down and cried after she danced with her expert companion Alan Bersten on Monday night and was knowledgeable by determine Carrie Ann Inaba she had “disconnected movements” and desires to level out her coronary coronary heart as a method to actually shine in the Season 28 opponents, Us Weekly reported.

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“Hannah was crying a lot last night offstage,” the provide knowledgeable Us, together with that it appeared like the 25-year-old former The Bachelorette star and magnificence queen was upset about “more than just the show.”

It was unclear to the provide, nonetheless, what exactly was improper with Hannah.

However, Hannah chosen to dish on her psychological and emotional state in a protracted Instagram publish on Tuesday.

“This experience has been harder than I might need ever imagined. When I decided to do DWTS I believed it is perhaps a fulfilling choice to channel all my energy after a whirlwind experience as the Bachelorette,” Hannah captioned a sequence of photos from her Dancing with the Stars rehearsals.

“I was hopeful that the confidence I gained this year to take pride in the woman I have become would have the opportunity to shine, and I’d feel that reboot in my spirit after it took a bit of a beating after my bachelorette season. I came into this experience a little broken and confused—more than I’ve shared.”

After getting dumped by Colton Underwood on The Bachelor’s 23rd season, Hannah starred on The Bachelorette’s fifteenth season and obtained engaged to Nashville-based nation singer Jed Wyatt, solely to dump him 5 weeks later because of Jed had lied to her about his relationship historic previous.

Jed initially knowledgeable Hannah that his romance with ex Haley Stevens ended one week sooner than taping commenced, nevertheless Haley knowledgeable People in June that Jed left Nashville to film the current in March nonetheless relationship her.

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In addition, Haley alleged in her interview Jed had said he was solely going on the current to promote his music and they’d resume their relationship as quickly as he returned residence.

In addition, Hannah appeared to suppose she had a shot with her runner-up, Tyler Cameron, after the season wrapped airing on ABC. The pair spent a night collectively in Los Angeles on August 1 nevertheless then he appeared to maneuver on with supermodel Gigi Hadid, whom he dated for virtually two months until they break up earlier this month.

“Everyday has brought its challenges with my past, my fears, and the uncomfortableness of opening myself up again to be judged on something VERY scary like learning a new skill to perform each week,” Hannah admitted in her Instagram publish.

“Last night was really defeating for me and a lot of suppressed emotions started to surface from this amazing, but grueling experience. I want to be me. I want to be real.”

“I feel my best when I feel like I have the opportunity to share my heart with others,” she continued. “But I do know that’s been lacking in what has been seen on DWTS. It’s true there is a disconnect. I’m busting my ass. I’m giving this my all. It’s my focus and passion correct now.”

But Hannah said for some function, she falls “flat” each week she takes the stage with Alan.

“I’ve gotten to the point of being so anxious before I perform that I can’t completely enjoy it like I wish and know I could. I KNOW I have a lot more I can give. I want to be able to feel free and confident to dance with my whole heart. I’m working on getting there,” Hannah shared.

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“I’m not throwing a pity party. I can take criticism and understand hard work…and I also know that my attitude has to change to rise above this slump I’m in. But this is real life. These are real emotions. It’s okay to be grateful and positive, while also acknowledging the hard days we all have.”

Hannah outlined that whereas it’s important to “think positively,” additionally it is important to “acknowledge and feel all the feels.”

“This pressure to pretend is not good for anyone. That’s how this crazy cycle of perfectionism continues to exist in a lot of us. I’m blown away by the support I see and feel from all of you who love me through it all. So thank you — here’s to another opportunity to grow. See y’all next Monday!” Hannah concluded.

Although Hannah and her companion Alan haven’t exactly been frontrunners in the Dancing with the Stars opponents, Hannah continues to boost each week from a technical standpoint.

Hannah and Alan accomplished in fourth place on the judges’ leaderboard with a whole of 52 out of 60 elements on Monday night’s current.

After dancing a jazz routine to “Bad Girls” throughout which Hannah was dressed as a dull magnificence pageant queen — a routine which obtained 25 out of 30 elements — she carried out in a workers dance with totally different strong members that obtained an extra 27 out of 30 elements.

After Carrie Ann knowledgeable Hannah the world needs to see further of her layers and rawness, Alan recognized to Dancing with the Stars co-host Erin Andrews, “Hannah is incredible but she’s a bit insecure… She has no reason to be insecure. She is such a beautiful, hardworking person.”

The subsequent Dancing with the Stars broadcast will air on Monday, November 4 and attribute an all-new “Dance Off” spherical, and one other couple is anticipated to be eradicated from the Season 28 opponents.

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